This is yet again a bit of a journal-like and a reflective blog, based on my state of mind since the last post till now.
I will admit i’m in better space mentally and in other ways than I was the last time around. This is not me saying life is any better or it’s more rosy because things are pretty much the same. The only thing different is that i’m finding my inspiration back especially when it comes to my writing and content creating. Which I am very excited about. My usual schedule for posting since the end of last year changed due to matters and other things I have going on in my personal life. I’ll share on that one day but for now i’d rather keep it private. I’d like to think especially in my more recent years i’m being tested in my process of evolving into who/what i’ve always been designed to be.
Tests are all part of life not just within education but almost any and everything we venture into, our desire and passion for it will be tested. I’ve grown to learn that these tests are very necessary, and I believe the purpose for them is to either strengthen you, or teach you about yourself and your process. So this is the phase of life that I am in right now. I am going through my process. Spiritually, I felt such times were ahead a while ago although I wasn’t able to discern the magnitude of it. As far as goals and plans I have for myself, though I was not inspired at the start of the year till fairly recently, I have been encouraged to find my fire again. Easier said than done of course, but for most part I intend to take things a day at a time. That’s what works for me, that’s my rhythm and flow.
Aside from that, a few things I have learnt is that; with or without you life still goes on. What you do with it is in your hands as far as God gives it. I have also learnt that it is okay to go through motions/emotions and low feels but so far as you can help it, please try not to stay there. It can get really dark real quickly. Fortunately, I have not experienced that but I know a few people who have. It’s not a good place and space to be in. But should you find yourself there please seek help from a trusted source, it’s never the end. Lastly, the older I get the more I understand that life is not entirely in my control no matter what I plan. Sometimes it feels like God like’s clowning us, spiritually I reckon he gets a good laugh sometimes. Despite what we think and what we plan, it’s almost as though things always have to go the other way which often makes us question what we’re chasing and weather it’s necessary.
All in all life goes on and things happen. We all go through a slump but there’s always something worth rising for, find yours and take it in your own stride.
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